i need to concentrate... desperately.. chinese o lvl is in a wk... i haf 6 daes more 4 me 2 mug for it...

[study hard(=]


wat the hell is up with me? for the past 2 daes i haf been trying 2 sit down and study for my chinese o lvls... and i juz cannt concentrate... i even ponned sch 2dae 2 try 2 get sum stuff done...

and tis afternoon i did the cheng yu thing tat was gifen and i dunno half the things there... and i feel realli realli demoralised... kc noes every single thing there and he was like telling me the answer and all... even mingjie... he's onli sec 1... and he noes some of the difficult ones...

i must ace my chinese.... i realli mus... plz... someone tell me wat 2 do... i wan my parents to be happi.. i wan to honor them..


juz toked 2 mom and dad... was crying like hell... i heard her voice and i juz cldnt hold back my tears..

i wan to see them nw... holidaes r like 2 daes away bt i haf 2 wait another 2 wks b4 i can go see them...

i feel realli apologetic... i am nt a gd daughter at all... i suck... i haf been sitting here trying to get some work done... or at least study my chinese o lvl.. bt i juz cannt concentrate at all... my fone bill like overshot like by like a hundred bucks... my results r nt tat great... it's juz a pass... i dun even get a single A... shang's like a straight 6-pter... kaijian and hongxiang get like 13 pts... guiliang gets 20...i cant even get anywhere near those...and all of them r scholars... i can nv compare with them...

i nv even done a single thing tat my parents can b proud of... at least ppl honor their parents with good results or at least being good at some stuff... i am nt even good at a single thing... my results suck... i learnt piano until grade 6 and i stopped... n my singing cant even b considered great... and i spend money like it's nothing... when my parents work their hearts out... trying to let me n bro haf a better life... they dun even treat themselves to good food... always think tat wait til i go there then we can all go 2gether...

though dad always say tat i'm independent and i'm alone here but i nv turn rebellious... i juz dun think it's enuff...







okie... i wanted to start on my lit assignment... sumhow i dun seem 2 b able 2 concentrate..

and i am bad mooding a bit nw... dunno wat's wrong with me... fine i shall do chinese..

i juz suck at everything la... was supposed 2 go 4 vocal 2dae n i decided nt 2 go.. n i am super irritated with myself..i have been slping the whole dae... wat the hell is going on with me???

i miss mom and dad so much... i cant wait 2 see them.. i realli envy those ppl who haf their mom and dad send them and pick them up from sch everydae... ppl who actualli get 2 see their parents everydae and nt juz tok 2 them on the fone like once in a few daes... sometimes i juz dun understand hw ppl can actualli fall out with their parents... and ppl e.g eudora actualli complain abt their parents this and tat... mayb wat val said was right..nw tat i dun actualli see my parents everydae... the time tat we are 2gether is so short and little tat i actualli cherish it so much...

true..sometimes i get angry with my parents too... bt all i haf to think abt is tat they r also feeling bad abt scolding me and they wouldnt do it if it wasnt 4 my own good... mom always tell me tat she feels guilty tat she hadn't been by my side much since young... and i haf always been alone... and tat she spends so much time making a living tat she can hardly even find time for me...




had farewell party juz nw....basicalli we had poolside dinner... den had like gifts presentation...den sang... almost cried there...bt held back my tears cz no one was crying... i tot abt the yr...hw so many things had happened btwn us... all the quarrels...the cold war and everything...

den until when esther told us 2 hug each other...and bid goodbyes... couldnt hold back animore...so cried... so did a lot of others... after tat munyuk was like giggling at me...so i laughed a lot after tat... and i took esther's fone and said i wanted 2 talk 2 her bf...den i told him 2 call back later...n we threw esther into the pool... haha... after she came up she was grabbed me and hugged me until i was a bit wet... haha

haiz...i hoped tat everyone was there...bt sadly... i hoped carmen was there 2... she feels so..distant nw...i hope things will be fine soon...




i am getting lazier n lazier in updating my blog...bt nvm...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAISY!!!

aniwayz... went church...den went 2 bugis...took neoprints... shopped a bit...went tjc choir concert...n i am like super tired nw... my energy lvl is like... super low nw...

yesterdae...went shopping 4 gifts 4 the sab..annie..fiona..n daisy... bot foto frame...n planning 2 frame the foto of the 6 of us tat we took during formal dinner.... as farewell gifts.... after shopping...met kuanchin in orchard...he was with his msia teacher... n the teacher was like...nearly 40 n she was like super funky!!!! gosh she bot this realli funky top...was realli nice and all..

oh ya..last thurs had formal dinner.. was quite fun...the performances were good... n we were crappy... after tat we took fotos...heee[i am happi 4 some reason...=p...guess onli sum ppl will noe y...]

fri..deepavali holidae...watched the park... was like freaked out totalli...me n kc were like realli scared... we were like grabbing each other... den realised it was ptless scaring myself... so like practicalli covered my face 4 the rest of the show...haha...nw i mite haf 2 watch it again cz heidi complained tat i watched it without her... great...

[tired..wishing for something to happen.. =)]



okie...recap...

sat went sentosa.. with joanne...jiamin...qq...melissa...n huiqin...v. fun...played in the water... kayaked...den played frisbee...n tanned a bit...n i gt burnt...den joseeeef happily go 2 sentosa and tell us stuff n make us super upset...

was supposed 2 go church..bt couldnt get up...2 tired.. after tat met dz in town in the afternoon...gt her formal dinner outfit... den ate kfc 4 dinner...

yesterdae gt back ALL the papers...was pretty much of a shock...bt i am quite happi tat i onli failed a maths and passed all the others 4 ovrall... den went sakae with jo..qq..melissa n bren... ate hell lots... den walked ard heeren...went jo's hse...

2dae..nv go sch... jamie say v. smart nv go..heee...


okie... recap...yes i din go sch again...overslept...sucks... woke up at 7 and was like oh no...

den went lunch with kc n kj n dz... den went 2 buy stuff... n looked at baby stuff!!!! cute cute~~ hehe i love~~

started moodswinging a bit...so watched Blue Crush... n it rocks totalli!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to learn surfing NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more moodswinging at dinner... den kj called and asked 2 play squash...so went 2 track n sang... den kc toked 2 me cz he knew i was bad-mooding... told him quite a bit of stuff...den felt much betta... den kj n dz joined us...

haha..juz moved all the sofas in the games room out of the way 4 all the luggages...heh n i planned it!! haha... [wateva]

yay tmr going pasir ris... play~~


yay~ gt my formal dinner outfit!~ gt a purple skirt..haha brenda chose it... it rocks..n gt the necklace...!!! yaya~~ and i shall bring the top 4 brenda 2 see tmr..~ heeee~~~

little india was okay la... nt tat bad... the tour guide was sissy tho...ewwwwwwwww....


yesterdae kc n kj came over 2 my plc...watched juon..was like covering myself half the time...kc kept snatching my cushion away... den watched beauty n the beast...

den heard tat kc n kj's form tcher actualli kinda lectured them saying tat WE were distracting them frm studies and everything...asked them where they went the previous nite [nite safari] and den b4 tat [infernal2].. den me n heidi were like super pissed... irritating...

great..din go 2 sch 2dae.. slept like sum pig..den went lunch with edward n dz... den went home... watched agent cody banks...

after cuming back 2 boarding watched american wedding with kooi...was like super disgusting...both of us were like squealing...

heh tmr going shopping with da!!!!! lalalalalala~~


hee~~ tmr gt sch...sigh...

last nite went night safari...ultra fun!!! heh saw so mani animals... giraffe was the best!~ they r so adorable~~ den we heard wolf howling...i was like sooo scared... den i clinged on 2 kc...gosh... den the bat thing also...was like so dark...bt at least it was my first time walking thru tat thing without closing my eyes... wooo hoo~ so fun!~

was supposed 2 wake up at 830 bt den woke up at 1200 instead... cleaned the hse... kc daisy and kj cuming later... haha..


phew...

recap..yesterdae went 2 church...city harvest... the enthu-ness was shocking...bt their faith 4 God was quite touching... the songs were nice...n i enjoyed the preaching...

after tat went 2 jurong pt 4 lunch...had ljs...den went 2 walk ard after tat... went toys r us...den dz n heidi used the rubber snake 2 scare kc..n he screamed!!! my gosh and it made me screamed too... n the funniest thing was he scolded me 4 screaming so loudly!!! wat is this...

den went ps...spotlight 2 meet kj n ec... bot sum stuff.. i gt the star ribbon 2 complete my dad's bdae card...den heidi bot a tiara.. and we went 2 walk ard the gift shops den went carrefour...

had dinner at hawker centre... den kinda rushed back... after exams..so me..kj n kc had no prep...so we were talking downstairs...

2dae... woke up at like 8.30...den went thomson 4 breakfast with kj n kc... had prata...nice~

den slept a bit...and had lunch in ri canteen...met ms grace... den when we almost finished gl came 2 join us...

went 2 watch infernal II with kc kj n gl...n i hate the show...apart frm edison being gd looking...there's like nothing else 2 watch...n the show is sadistic!!! i hate all the killing!! it was so violent n all the gunshots were realli intimidating...gosh...
ooh n i made up my mind abt sumthing..hee onli da noes!~

okie...tat's all 4 nw..going nite safari with heidi kj n kc later~

[???]


okie..juz came back!!~

went home... did sum stuff for my roommies and closer ppl in boarding... den watched abit of tv...

den went town 2 meet heidi n kuanchin... went 2 orchard lib... had dinner at fareast... walked ard abit... went topman+topshop... then came back...

me n kc rushed off 2 7-11 2 get haagen daz...den din tell them... haha... den both of us walked back 2 boarding damn fast... cz it was like 2140 already... heh...

i am feeling abit depressed and confused nw... dunno abt wat...

aniwayz... yz injured himself during bball.. hope he gets betta soon... take care~~

hai...



great...exams r like finalli over!!!!!!!!!!!

hafen even bothered 2 update this plc 4 wks cz ri connection juz sucks and ah..i'm juz lazy...

juz watched a time 4 dancin on fri...with brenda... it rocks man..the dancing!!! oh man... and i cant find the bk..haiz... everywhere also dun haf...

last nite had courtyard dinner... the food sucked [wat's new aniway..] so in the end we all wanted 2 go out n eat..bt din eat anithing in the end..juz walked ard j8... n precious moment figurines r so chio and they juz rock!~ wooohoooo

gosh someone actualli tot me and candy were 2gether... aw man...do i look like crook in the first plc...haaaaa

i am in a shopping mood... n shld b going town later... with heidi..dz...kaijian and kuanchin i think.... hee TOWN!!!

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