prelims
chem pract - monday 29th aug 2005
bio pract - tuesday 30th aug 2005
physics pract - wednesday 31 aug 2005


y was i shaking?

mayb it's true wat heidi said.. no point trying to be nice to some people if they look down on you or is just.. rude... ignore them..

bro patrick told us to write down what we really want and trust God for it.. until it comes to past.. =)


aiyah i dun wan to stay here already la
i wan to go homeeeeeeeeeeeee


wah i dun wan to read the book anymore la after chris tells me that the camerlengo is the bad guy... TSK spoil my story! i liked the camerlengo!!

tiring.. just came back from movies.. drink drank drunk.. hmm the show's good.. i liked it!

argh y cant i log on to msn!!

hmm i am supposed to be hafing a physics test tmr.. but ahhh i am gonna do my bio drawing.. i gonna re-draw all the diagrams we learnt this whole wk.. then i'll look through physics now and during my free period b4 physics tmr!

todae... hmm typical day at school...
all the classes were practical since next wk's practical exam..
=))
tsk tis chris threw talcum powder + water on me!! yucks la.. my whole head was white.. idiot!
then lunch dunno y out of sudden people were throwing water at each other and everyone was pissed.. =s okay bad to say tis but lucki i siam..
after school went to the haunted house preparation.. and they switched off all the lights and the room was pitch black i couldnt see a thing.. and tis james and kane and iain teh just keep on running towards me and scare me.. TSK.

shall go and study..
be a good girl

=)))


quite a few people used to ask me if God loved us all so much.. y do bad things happen in the world? i always didn't know how to answer this question properly..so i found tis excerpt in angels and demons quite meaningful..

'Father,' Chartrand said, 'may i ask you a strange question?'

the camerlengo smiled, 'only if i may give you a strange answer.'

Chartrand laughed. 'i have asked every priest i know, and i still don't understand.'

'what troubles you?' the camerlengo led the way in short, quick strides, his frock kicking out in front of him as he walked. His black, crepe-soled shoes seemed befitting, chartrand thought, like reflections of the man's essence... modern but humble, and showing signs of wear.

chartrand took a deep breath. 'i don't understand this omnipotent-benevolent thing.'

the camerlengo smiled. 'you've been reading Scripture.'

'i try.'

'you are confused because the Bible describes God as an omnipotent and benevolent deity.'

'exactly.'

'omnipotent-benevolent simply means that god is all-powerful and well-meaning.'

'i understand the concept. it's just... there seems to be a contradiction.'

'yes. the contradiction is pain. man's starvation, war, sickness...'

'exactly!' chartrand knew the camerlengo would understand. 'terrible things happen in this world. human tragedy seems like proof that god could not possibly be both all-powerful and well-meaning. if he loves us and has the power to change our situation, he would prevent our pain, wouldn't he?'

the camerlengo frowned. 'would he?'

chartrand felt uneasy. Had he overstepped his bounds? was this one of those religious questions you just didn't ask? 'well... if God loves us, and he can protect us, he would have to. it seems he is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help.'

'do you have children, lieutenant?'

chartrand flushed. 'no, signore.'

'imagine you had an eight-year-old son... would you love him?'

'of course.'

'would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?'

'of course.'

'would you let him skateboard?'

chartrand did a double take. the camerlengo always seemed oddly 'in touch' for a clergyman. 'yeah, i guess,' chartrand said. 'sure, i'd let him skateboard, but i'd tell him to be careful.'

'so as this child's father, you would give him some basic, good advice and then let him go off and make his own mistakes?'

'i wouldn't run behind him and mollycoddle him if that's what you mean.'

'but what if he fell and skinned his knee?'

'he would learn to be more careful.'

'the camerlengo smiled. 'so althought you have the power to interfere and prevent you child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?'

'of course, pain is part of growing up. it's how we learn.'

the camerlengo nodded. 'exactly.'






I AM OFFICIALLY FRUSTRATED.


i just cant help but feel intrigued and upset about how someone can treat you like dirt once you are of no values or use to that person anymore..

great tv's spoilt my daddy say dun wanna get a new one yet so now i feel like going to stay in a abbey.. hahahaha


ri boarding 10th anniversary dinner
was alright.. wasnt as bad as i tot that not much people will turn up and will just be a small normal formal dinner..
but a lot of people came... talked to a lot of people tat i hafen met in ages..
so i guess i was quite happy..
talked to mdm cheah.. ms heng.. ms helmy.. ms khor etc..
and i do really miss boarding a lot a lot..
all the people that i haf known.. the memories that we had..
altho tonight's food was erm.. out of proportion.. [martin's piece of chicken chop was 4x the size of the one i got! haha i noe martin is bigger size but tai tai here is hungry!]
generally the atmosphere the performance the company and the gifts were good~
ms heng was so cute.. telling us about her marriage life and stuff.. then she was saying.. rachel needs to be careful nt to get cheated by guys.. she said the same thing to heidi.. and she said.. pointing at me.. 'haiya ur husband just needs to be rich.. you qian jiu hao le..' [!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
and she taught us to list out our criterias for our future husband.. hahaha
took pics.. talked.. met people..
after tat we went to kopitiam at bras basah road to haf supper and chill..
but the cab driver took us to tis wrong plc at victoria street that we had to walk all the way to bras basah!!!!!!!!!

last night stayed over at yy's plc..
man his snoring.. wonderfully loud..
i mean rhythmic snoring [eg. my dad] i can still sleep with it blaring in my ear..
but...
yy!!!
my god his sounded like shortness of breath.. and the sound of his short breath make me cannt breathe also! i wanted to choke!!!
when i heard his snoring i was wondering to myself..
what if my future husband also snore like tat..
then i 40 years no need to sleep alr right????
i am already born with the dark circles pls leh u wan them to stretch to my cheeks ar..
sigh..


sigh


normal day at school..
after school stayed in sch w chris and slacked in the library toking rubbish..
met heidi at thomson for dinner..
bot cds..
=..


there are just so many things going through my mind right now i don't know what to think..
i want to go china now so desperately why cant my parents just allow it..


I MISS EDWARD CHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY YOU ABANDON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


recap..

hai edward chan!!! come back now!!!!!!!!!!
y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dun worry edward i drowned those 2 person for u in the burger king ice cup!!!
i dun wan edward to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay went airport to send him off.. quite a lot of ppl were there too..
saw a lot of ppl frm boarding..
darlingzzz was there too!! and trying to ask me for divorce! haha
but obviously i refuse.. haha and now i think he is arranging for his lawyer frens and i am gonna haf james to defend me!! haha
I DUN WANT EDWARD TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
was damn sad when he was gonna go in...
then i kept saying edward dun go he just ignored me..
and the rest just keep on asking me to cry..
crazy leh such a solemn occasion y they make it like joke..
argh EDWARD CHAN COME BACK NOW!!!

sigh
now i am broke..
thanks to penny hah


there's a test tmr and i am dead tired..
sigh..
=)


just when you thought you knew someone.
the realization that you actually didn't know that much after all suddenly hits you so hard.
it's like a slap across your face.


all hell trembles. as i proclaim his name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've got the joy of the lord in me! =D

church anniversary!
=))))
town to meet heidi and daisy..
shopping..
i bot stuff! =)
i am going to stuff myself with rocher!! hehe i loveeeee it.


gonna sleep..
penny's party.. quite fun..
=)
contented.


bro just said i was stupid?
[?_?]


porridge porridge porridge
i want porridge.
bleah

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